Chino Otsuka : Imagine Finding Me
Chino Otsuka uses photography and video to explore the fluid relationship between the memory, time and photography. At age 10 she moved from Japan to the United Kingdom to attend school. Her experience of becoming familiar with a new place, a different language and new customs while she was developing her adolescent identity has profoundly shaped her work in photography, video and writing. Her series Imagine Finding Me consists of double self-portraits, with images of her present self beside her past self in various places she has visited. As Otsuka says: “The digital process becomes a tool, almost like a time machine, as I’m embarking on the journey to where I once belonged and at the same time becoming a tourist in my own history.” - via AGO
I am unexpectedly weepy looking at this.
gosh that’s… moving in a really gentle kind of “mother your inner child” way…
It’s so good that I ALMOST SCROLLED PAST IT because I assumed they were just regular pictures
I know that I’m an annoying piece of shit fuck up but at this rate I just have to accept that that’s who I am. Somebody who can’t seem to snap out of making bad decisions or regrets. Somebody who can’t stop overthinking every bad decision he ever made, and how badly he wishes he could take back every one of them, at least to get rid of the pain inside of his mind, if not to set things right. Somebody who constantly worries over how others will think about and respect and view him even though he also tells himself all the time that none of that shit matters. It’s so hard to listen to that voice sometimes. Somebody who is so afraid of getting hurt and injured that at times it feels nerve wracking, if not paralyzing, and shuts himself off from wanting to be social because he knows it will just end in disappointment again. Somebody who wants to love but has never truly experience the kind of love he would like outside of family. Sometimes it’s real goddamn hard being me.
But I’m the only goddamn person I truly have in this world. So I’m gonna ride it out and make myself a better person and live my life how I want and with who I want. There’s not a goddamn thing that can be done about that. I am me, and like it or not, I somehow like me.
So let’s do it.
whenever somebody says like “so what did you do today?” just look off into the distance and say “the right thing”
When I was just starting high school, a girl who rode my bus invited me to stay the night at her house and when I did she got really emotional and told me no girls ever stayed over because she was a lesbian and if you don’t think that’s the saddest thing ever you need to re-evaluate your life
God, fuck you. Be fucking honest with me, I don’t care if it hurts worse than a lie. I don’t give one fuck if it hurts worse. I will always prefer the truth over sugar coated bullshit.
GOOD LUCK THIS YEAR, YOU ARE IMPORTANT, AND I KNOW YOU WILL DO GREAT. I LOVE YOU
AND EVEN IF YOU DON’T DO GREAT I STILL LOVE YOU AND YOU ARE STILL GREAT
i don’t care if it’s a only a joke, please don’t make comments about how someone’s choice of field of study isn’t going to take them anywhere because it can be a great source of stress and your joke won’t help.
also, destroy the idea that we should only pursue dreams if they are likely to give you status in this capitalist piece-of-shit society.